silent valley

Last day after wrote my blog I went to line. But I had a trouble. I writes blog through computer. But not completely through computer, first I upload a photo through mobile than when I get time I add my pre written text to blog. I was putting a flower photo to my last blog. But I have been connect mobile secretly from other. So in my hurry again add that old photo in my blog. Last day was not too busy but I did too many letters last day evening. Same problem again the lunch time. Lunch was rotti, rice, dal, Veg curry, and boiled egg. My colleges are greedy for food. We have entitled of two eggs daily, some time cook house in charge couldn’t withdraw eggs timely from SKT. Than he couldn’t gave that in break fast. Evening would be meat day. Than peoples ask that where are my entailments? So he gives with lunch. I only eat rice and veg curry . if the dal is good than takes two spoon. After lunch I went to line. I have been a problem in my digestion system. My motion is not run smoothly time to time. So I had to gone mid day. But I felt shame after lunch it was nt good. But I couldn’t control my pressure. In our unit too many mango trees people broken and keep in their locker mangoes and eat after lunch. I like but not like to eat alone. At my house we all eat good quality mangoes at evening time. Some time papaya or pineapples born in our farm. I spend my rest time through mobile. I was thinking to buy a new mobile. Samsung Gallexy is best. But that is a touch screen mobile. It not good to chat by lye on bed. When thought to buy a mobile. my needs of money will raise too. I talk to amma, she told now too many money is needed to doing the functions of sister kids. My two months salary needed to do normall. . I told to dad withdraw all money remaining from my account. All my friends thought I am govt employ but live like a farmer. What they know yet I didn’t earn anything from this job with out harassment and loneliness. I have been spending my all salary for my sisters. We took a huge amount from bank for marry of sisters. Kerala is a state there dowry run commonly. Peoples show their riches through gold gives their kids on marriage. Or by making big houses.
I thought too much time why I hurt due to other people. Which people I didn’t saw, or I didn’t know any thing personnel. I didn’t believe anybody in this world without my dad. I learn from my small life didn’t believe any body . Expect from nothing any body ( it teach me net, because I start to love people after comes peperonity) I loving my orchids and lilly too much. But peperonity teach me too many good thinks from my golden flowers. I learn womens didn’t want sex they expect care like a dad a hus and a son. I have a wrong thinking peoples live for sex. Because in army everybody speaks sexy language and about their sex all time. Also they keep a large collection of Blue film in their mobile. I have been learning too from my flowers. I didn’t know why I follow for truth. May be it all by my reading of geetha. I am thinking why I telling lye to any body. I didn’t like it all. But some time I didn’t tells truth . Because I thought that hurts my friends. It means not I didn’t telling lie to my friends. Today morning I went running there was working. I hidly escape from the working so I get too time for ready. I get ready quickly but I forget to read geeta today. And pray god. My mind was about my flowers. In office I have too work yet 12 am. Some document are lying in my table. But it need too many time. So I thinking to do this evening time. If work is too than I feels comfort.
Last day evening I visit my garden, anthuriums have any pblem. They didn’t suit my care. They are want to going another garden. I think it good. We couldn’t care all flowers than it good to leave them to another garden where they get care. My orchids and Lilly are fine. but they also have problems. it by drought. I hope it take too many time to came rain here . at evening time when I was caring golden orchid. I sent a true msg to her. After sent I feel I did wrong. Some hours I didn’t get message from her. It make me too happy. I didn’t found golden orchid or lilly to wipe my sad. But god is great he sent that man who gave abuse me earlier. We chat too many time. I felt too comfort. We didn’t discus about his flower. I feel I am chat with a big man. He is working in a mobile service provider coy. He belongs same district where I work. Now he is too away work. I felt he is like me. But he coldnt console my heart. My mind want to care my orchids and lilly (Golden flowers) I try to sleep with out their touch. But I didn’t get sleep. I thought to doing bad may bee good to sleep well. But my love with my flower and my promise didn’t let me. I hope my flowers come back from under ground. Time goes too . I think to ask about my lilly to his friend. But he was off. Again I thought it was good. May be my enquiry made too angry that man. I am too cracy to pamper my flowers before any other care her. So I pamper before completely spread flower . My flower is too good she didn’t told any complaint. But I didn’t understand my flowers why didn’t pamper lotus. May be it born at water. So only Water lilly pamper lotus. I think why orchids pamper lotus. But they enjoy lotus handsome upside of the pot. May a golden lotus flower born within two days. I have been skeptic!!!!!!!!!!! Please advice me what I do?????

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