Nothing stable with out soul

Gd evening mutti and grany
This picture telling walking to dark alone is better than with a friend. Yes when friends bring to dark than try to show run light. Wheathfr they not like than say tata and pray for him/her. The trees does not withdraw its shade from the wood cutter. So Forgive those who hurt you. They will realize your worth one day. I hope too
I think to write of too of hurting mind. I realising i am a mad and idiot man. Why hurt net friends me ? I ask this to my brother. He told me. Here people comes for joy. When they were weak due to work and life. Then for a little enjoyment. I am a mad always see this friends as my family members. A big mistake . Now i can not change my thoughts. I again try to care my life. A good question ask my brother who is at pp. I told some dearest friend and told old age. He told me to find my thoughts and likes are unpredictable. May be right because he know me since my start to talk and play.
Grief that make me to stay here. Two old womans. My mammas. I come and stay here for there. Some incidence that beyond my image and control. Now i think and trying to keep a distance from my mammas. Because i am mad, they not like me their culture and thought are too wide than me. I have glad they teach too much directly and indirectly too much. I memoris and think of them always. A small changes of mind start to effect my life.
i can not change their thought or have happiness in their mind. But they was a relief for me all time. Even today my mutti, i do not know what happiness and inspiration getting from mutti. It utter chaos like a godess. When i didnt get muttis msg timely. It makes mad.
I remembering that days. My body and mind balance changed due to grief of mutti.it not a good symbol. I have to return to my real life. But it impossible.
Last day i call my friends and went to game. JCO relieve me friend grass cut and ask to do work. I work with sad mind. From 5 pm to 8.15 pm. I cont work rightly i make blunder mistake. It all due to my net mammas. What i saw last day that beyond my control. I show my angry by clossin that chapter. But with a smile mamma re open that. I was mentaly and physically weak. And my net was slow. I sleep early and awake with some bad dreams. My tiger was making charge sheet against me. For what that i foot know
I told of my punishment chm early morning when we meet at bathroom. He told today have pt. It was rainy . But had not PT . I goes to office and work without rest. My face book was open. Nithesh and Rajesh was online. They give too many abuse. They thought i am chating with somebody. I leave office and call nithesh

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