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~¤¤FRANZ MATTHEW¤¤~ The moment i felt i have u ; mixed emotions lingers in my heart.... I knew by then i was not ready yet ,, so i thought of hiding u and keeping you by myself!! There's not a day or night that i shed tears,,, for im afraid to tell the world about you. . . . . I wonder what kind of life i could give u. . . For back then i was still very empty and has no sure direction . . . . . . . .Whenever i lay in my bed i could feel your heartbeat so strong against mine. . . . And as you moved inside my womb,, i can't help but smile and imagine how you would be... . . . . . . Pain was unbearable when i felt u were ready to come out!!! So nervous that something might get wrong and if i can make it . . . . . .And when i finally heard you cry i looked at your face and my tears fell free out of too much gladness. . . . I thanked GOD you were delivered safely! !.. You were such a beautiful baby. . . . . . So healthy yet so fragile.. . . And when i held you in my arms can't define how happy i've been!!! I still remember your first smile and the first time you called me MAMA. . . . . You brought me so much happiness as well as the whole family. . . . . Because of you im a stronger and better person now. . . . .You are my only joy!! Im so proud to have you. . . . . . I thank GOD you came to my life. . .<My Son> FRANZ MATTHEW. . .
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¤¤¤ MY SON ¤ My PRECIOUS CHILD¤¤¤ (published in MTA 01-25- He's name is Franz Matthew My boy!! So young at age 5 yet so mature. . . . He's one big source of my strenght for my struggles and hardwork.. . . It's almost a near to death feeling when i decided to leave him. . . .Hè's why im here because i love him so, for his future.. . . . . . He always used to tell me "come home Mom even without money!! I don't need anythng,, only you beside me.. . . . . I won't grow without you" . . . . . .I would cry a lot and say " i can't my son! Not yet,, all that mom does right now is all for you---for your tomorrow. . . . .. . . . As days becomes weeks & weeks turns to months!! Now he would tell me " BE brave MOM!! you can do it!! Don't worry about me, i am always a good boy! I am growing up fast one day i'll go there and help you.." Everyday i miss him so much,,,, he's always in my dreams for im thinking that when i return home he's no baby anymore but a young man! The little boy who does'nt want to let go of his grip of me will be thére no more.. . . . .Time runs swift and he grows big but i promised him 1 thing which made him laugh out really loud. . . .That even it takes a løng time of us apart? When i get home i'd carry him like a baby the way i used to before i left him för he is my 0nly s0n my preci0us Child. .
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*****MILES AWAY***** ¤ ¤ ¤ ¤ ¤ ¤ ¤ ¤ ¤ ¤ They say absence makes the heart grow fonder . . And long distance love affair are impossible. . . Other's c0uld think s0, but not me and my baby!! Th0ugh were really far away 0ur l0ve is str0nger than ever! ! ! F0r it is binded and secured that even a great wind and st0rm c0uld test it's endurance. . . . He's still the 0ne wh0 makes my heart beat crazy and wild thr0ugh the years. . . The 0ne wh0 gives d sparkle in my eyes and the sweetness in my smile.. . . . He's the 0nly 0n f0r just hearing his v0ice makes me m0re than alive!!! . . . . . 0ur hearts beat as 0ne bey0nd distance and time. . . . . It's like we're in each 0ther's arms th0ugh we're s0 many MILES AWAY!!! :).. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . [10-28-05
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¤¤¤ MY DEAR HEART ¤¤¤
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I kn0w y0u're in pain,,,,,, i kn0w it hurts. . .. . . . . . . It's a tough decisi0n ,,,, but it's a g00d 0ne.... . . . . . . You l0ve him f0r quite a while n0w,,,, but is it right???? . . .. . . . Letting g0 is the best thing 2 d0.... . . . . F0r it is n0t pr0per to fall f0r him. . .. . . . . D0n't mind the pain ,,,, it will g0..... Life is like that,,,, it's never fair.. . .. . . . Move on,,,, for there's always a next time. . ... . . D0n't w0rry my dear heart. . . . . . . . S0me0ne will c0me y0ur way
. . . . .. . . .. The 0ne wh0se meant just f0r y0u.......
