"My misery has enjoyed company and although I have ached, I dont threaten anybody... Sometimes I feel more bigness than I´ve shared with you... Sometimes I wonder why I quell when I´m not required___ I´ve tried to be small I´ve tried To stay stunted, I´ve tried roadblocks and all... My happy endings prevented___ Sometimes I feel it´s all just too big to be true... I sabotage myself for fear of what my bigness could do___Fear of bliss and fear of joyitude, fear of bigness (and ensuing solitude?)___ I could be golden, I could be glowing, I could be freedom but that could be boring___ Sometimes I feel This is too scary to be true... I sabotage myself for fear of losing you______ This talk of liberation makes me want to go lie down under the covers til the terror of the unknown is gone___I could be full I could be thriving, I could be shining sounds isolating___Sometimes I feel this is too good to be true... I sabotage myself for fear of what my joy could do"-AlAnis MorisseTTe_Fear Of Bliss(Feast On Scraps)
