The death of my soul goes unnoticed because of the plastered smile that i have placed across my face while moving through this life i`m a stranger in this world, i dOn`t want to stay, not one more day i have walked far more than i have here, mile after long mile. I know that many love and care, but that doesn't ease my soul's strife you see, i still pray to die and very few know why, for a grave i pray.
Pain have i and tears plenty. Enough for a river i have cried inside. I want an end; a darkness eternal, to sleep; to forget and never care. I know God loves me, i know jesus paid the fee, but i have to be free
From the cares of this world, hopelessness, like a tide, washes over me.
I have done what i can here. There are few with whom i can share Why i have this despair. For it is an end of this suffering that i plea.
I am caged in a body that should not be mine. Bound by society with shackles unshined Cornered by thoughts spinning in my head i am certain that i would be better dead
All will be well when i can escape. It's now or never; before courage breaks to find the strength to make the strike to feel the daggers cold steel bite. I failed, i failed. I failed this time! I cOuldn`t drive that dagger deep so i sit in my bathroom and i will weep i lacked the will for eternal sleep. I beg that i won't falter next time.
I pray that God above will know
That i did my best here below
That i love Him and his son so
Grant me strength to deal the blow.
I ask your forgiveness for all my sins
I pray that you will let me start again
But next time please make this right
And don't give me this awful plight
Just let me be the girl that i am inside
So i can live my life without the lies
That i have told to others and to me.
And please open the eyes of our society
God, Please let me die.
So that truly i can say i lived my life your way...
Author * Jessica