30 june
subah utha kar dekhaa,koi miss call nahi thi.I told him to make miss call so that i came to know that he remembering me.But he dont remembrt me now,so how can he make miss call!
whole day passed but he never called or remembered me once. After 8 pm its unbearable for me.I was waiting for his call desperately."I will not call him"I decided as i wanted to see when he remembers me.I wasnt able to do anything.I was staring at mobile like mad person.Anjali asked:"kya hua chachu?"
I said,"kuchh nahi."
I wanted to cry.I was feeling so bad.
At last he called me at 11:27pm.I pretended like nothing happened.He started explaining:"I slept at 4 am and woke up at 3 pm.then i went to bequet hall to search some boxes of sweets."when he said"yaar meenakshi ke ghar gayaa tha"it was clear that he dont want to tell me this.But he told me.:"We danced 3 hrs.All people were saying look at him.he is dancing so well.stage was full. i ate everything.etc etc."
He again not listning to me.I told him,dont move much,take rest .He said ok,i will remember this and once again he forgot my instructions.Main koun hotaa hun kuchh kahne wala!He said:"i was busy last days,you must have thinking that i dont call you but now i am free.i will go to office on monday.i will call you now."
He forgot that i told him that i will come to see him .I didnt want to but i lied again,as i was angry .He forgot me!I am not important for him!I told him:"i was in your area,i called you but your mobile was not connecting."
I know he know that i am telling a lie.
I wanted him to know this.
i said"I will come to your affice to see you.i will give your flowers to you."
But he ignored this.I feel those flowers mean nothing to him.Now i wont give him that flowers.
I didnt want to tell him that i was worried about him and his call but i did told him.he said"i know"
I said"main gin gin ke badle lunga."
he said"plz ye mat bol.ab mujhe tere badlon se darr lagataa hai."
"main to un badlon ki baat kar rahaa tha jo main akele mein letaa hun."i said but he ignored this also.
He said"ok,good night.I will call yopu tomorrow.Kal khoob baaten karengay."
"as you wish"i said
"plz aise mat bolo."he requested.
"ok"
But i know he cant change situations now.i sent One sms 2 days ago that"agar tum ek kadam badhogay,main 10 kadam badhungaa.agar tum 1 kadam peechhay hatogay,main begining se shuru karungaa."
but it doesnt matter to him.He told me that he remembered me 2-3 times today but couldnt call me.I know he delebrately didnt called me .If he wanted,he could make miss call from his mobile but he .....
He will not call me tomorrow.i know.
I want this relationship to go on.I am trying.But i dont know kab tak?
