I was right.Usne call nahi kiya.I remembered him whole day.
He was ready to shave his body for me once upon a time.He said once he could leave everything for me,we both knew this is not prectical but sometimes we all say something which is not real but express our concern and emotions.
I am not such nice person.I always tell lies and try to confuse him.i am DEVIL.In the movie CHAMELI, Kareena kapoor tell the hero 3-4 stories of her life and evrytime laugh at the hero who believes her every time.Perhaps she didnt wanted to tell him real story,or she wanted to tell him her story but at the same time didnt want ...... or she wanted to convince the hero that he should not believe her and should not involve him to her life as she is not belong to her world.
Thats exactly my reasons,why i always tell him different story and at the same time i tell him that it is not true.
At last i sent him 2 sms that my card will expire today and the second one is GOOD NIGHT.
He caled me soon.I knew.He said that there are some guests in his home and mom dad are in market to buy chicken.I told him that he should attend guests as he was sitting in front of them and talking to me.He said that He was sleeping in day and then he went with Bua to buy new hand set.He bought A setwith r world facility.I said;"thank god,tune meri 1 baat to maani."
I told him that my mobile will disconnect today.He asked,"tum recharge karwaogay ya nahi?"
I said"abhi nahi."
I asked"what happened that voucher you perchased last month?"
He replied"wo to mom ne use kar liya."
he said"Mujhe call karna shaam ko.Phone bund mat karnaa."
I said"ye bhi koi kahne ki baat hai.I will call you."
"mom aa gai hain.I will call you later."he said.
"tab tak main shayad so jaungaa."i replied.
then he said good night in usual manner.Last week he didnt said i love you 2-3 times.
Why i want that he should recharge my mobile?If this time he doesnt recharge ,it means he doesnt need me anmore.Ah his home,He was telling me that new voucher comes at 149 rs only but it doesnt have facility to call.I said"phir main tujhe miss call bhi nahi maar sakunga."
The fact is i only call him by this mobile and he is the only friend i have right now.I cant loose him and he know this.erhaps this is the reason why he doesnt care about me now.When he was not sure about me,at that time he have to keep everything perfact,ki kahin main duur na chalaa jaun.but now he knows that it is not possible,thats why he doesnt call me.Its human nature.
I dont think this but Once these ideas came in my mind that kahin ye reason to nahi.But i am sure this is not the reason.
sometimes i think,"kahin usse bura to nahi lagaa maine Amjad aur Meenakhi ki burai kar di."
How can i praise them.These are the only people who can snetch him from me!I cant tolerate them in his life,NEVER.
Sometimes i think i will return him all the money he spent on me at the right time or at the time when i feel that i should say GOOD BYE to him.Ya.Its possible that i say him good bye if i feel that he is ignoring me or now he doesnt need me anymore.
