Whole day I was thinking about him.I was thinking,how would i give him money,how would i tell him about his website,what should i do so that he could reply me.I was thinking,not to call him again.I am not heartless person,but somebody misplaced my heart and he doesnt know about his act.
I went to Palam in the evening.I was going to Rakesh's house but in the whole journy i was planning to meet Him.i got fresh in the Rakesh's house and called Him.I asked"mujhe kitni baar yaad kiya?
He replied"bahut baar.got my sms?"
I said"no,i am outside due to office work.Kya likha tha?"
"khud padh lena."
"milna hai?"
"aaj jiju aaye hue hain tum kahaan ho?"
"I am far away but i can come "
"aaj nahi.Samjha karo,tum nahi samajhogay to kaun samjhega?"He said.
"i can come outside your house"i suggested.
But he refused.i was disappointed again.I am ready to meet outside his home but he cant.I just wanted to see him once.Infact i went there only for him,But he doesnt feel the need.I will not call him again.
I came back at home and without changing clothes,picked up the phone and saw his sms:WHERE ARE YOU PHONE RECHARGE NAHI KEYA GHAR PAR HO KHANA KHA LEYA MARA DIL BAAT KARNA KO KAR RAHA THA RAAT KO GOOD NIG HAHI KE SUBHA GM BHE"
hE WANTS THAT I RECHARGE MY PHONE MYSELF.
Nothing wrong in this.But i wont.I am living this Identity only for him.I wanted to finish this personality.I wanted that this mobile die with me.He brought back me from the dark and now he is leaving me here alone.
If he hadnt recharged my mobile,i wouldnt that much close to him becouse due to his this action i realised that how serious was he about me.Before this,i was just responding to his actions.
I respect others feelings,Thats why i was listning his ideas,otherwise i wasnt sure that i would feel him in myself one day.I knew that my mobile is going to disconnected soon and at that day,our reationship will also disconnected.
But he Do this act so that our relationship Wouldnt die.I want him to do the same again and again.I will not call him now.I am waiting that he need me or not.If not,I will go to his office and give him 420 rupees and tell him the address of this site so that he could see the true ME.otherwise He would see this on his birthday.
