Lately ive been thinkin bout my ex
You no silly little things
Like things tha he has said to me that has made melt right there on spot
Things that we done together
I can remember one time when i told him i didnt want him anymore
I told him that cos i was down in dumps things were gettin on top of me
I just wanted the whole world to leave me alone
Anyway
After about a week of me bein alone
I sat down and prayed to GOD
I said GOD i feel alone i want some who loves me for me, who makes me happy
Who makes me feel complete
After about another week i was still alone and thought yet another prayer un answered
So i got bk with my ex
Its only now that i realise that the reason my prayers didnt seem like they were answered
Was because i had everything i was prayin for
Does that make sense
Any way that was then and now is now
If you ever read this babe i lied when i told you i wish i had never met you
Im so glad that i did meet you because you was an important part of my life for three year
You've given me a beautiful son even though you say your not ready to be a dad
And you loved me when i needed love the most
So thank you for the three years that you was in my life
Ive had so many guys sayin that they want me and some of then a pretty dam tasty
But i dont want em dont want my x bk the past is in the past
I dont want him bk but i dont want another guy cos i dont wanna love again
I believe that you only find true love once and that you only give your whole heart soul and body away once
Every one else after that only gets the left overs and whats the point of that
Ive loved and ive lived to love even though it didnt end well i can still say that i gave my heart away ive loved i found my special some one how great is that
Its like sex such a big thing to some girls got one mate that just dont stop talkin bout it
Ok so its nice to have it once in a while
Call me old fashioned but whats the point of having sex with someone
If you dont feel deep for them not lust
Its easy to say o i really like him i want to be with him, just so you can make gettin about look like its nothin and make it look honest
Get what i mean so far
But i really dont understand it you no ya talkin a load a bull and your only after sex so why do it
How can you have sex with someone that you dont connect with that you dont have feelings for.
K im no angel and im not sayin that i haven done it but what gets me is i feel so dirty sick almost ashamed after ive done it like i dont no
It just feels wrong and dirty k its fun while ya doin it but after i feel used and like ive used
Where as If i have sex with some one i connect with and have feelings for
Then its fun while im doin it and after i feel like im on cloud nine like hay there good lookin
L o l get what im sayin
Anyway l o l end of that convo l o l
Aaaaaaa whats wrong wi me ppl L o l
