Ok ya all might think wat a piece a xit leavin me wi a baby
I thought the exact same thing at first
But at end of the day when i told him i was pregnant he told me strait up
Im not ready to be a dad he said, i dont no how to be a dad, i dont want you to be pregnant and then he followed it with i want ya ta have an abortion
Ok it might seem harsh but
I would rather him do that than stay wi me and our son knowin that he didnt want to
I would rather my our son have no dad rather than to have a dad that was only there because he was forced to or a dad that didnt want him or wasnt ready to put him first or ready to be his dad
Plus when i found out the timing was so so wrong Lol i was half way through second year at college and he had just started his own business and was just about to buy his own home
You see i had to give up college had to drop all my plans
But i new right from the start that he wouldn want me to keep it cos his work his mates his car and his girl and sex addiction always came before me
But at the same time i new another reason was cos he was sacred.
He said to me one day
I no If we ever had an arguement tammy you would say that im not allowed to see him just to hurt me
Im not like that but we have had propa bad arguements in the past
And yes i have said and done some pretty hurtful things to get bk at him
But thats a lesson that i have learnt from
You see another problem was his mates an my mates his family not so much mine and everyone in between
It wasnt just me and him in the relationship
His friends at start were ok wi me then they started stirin between up when the relationship was goin fantasticly well
They would say stuff to me about him and i would belive it my friends would say stuff to me about him and id believe it and the same would happen to him
So in the end the trust we had had gone and with that whent the fun and affection
Cant blame it all on other ppl tho i was just to blame for things goin wrong
You see ive had wat you would call a troublesum childhood and past
So when he my ex used to put his arms round me i loved it but i wasnt used to it so id push him away or when he complimented me id snap at him
Any way it hurts to much thinkin bout this so end of this page
I just hope ppl dont think bad of him CLINT Lol like i said he saved my life he was at one point my lover my best friend and my companion
And to this day we still talk and he has started seein his son now and then which is ok wi me Lol smiles
